Been An Awful Couple Of Weeks...

It's been an awful 3-4 week! I came down with a cold and it's only just gone.. I haven't been that unwell in quite a while and I ended up having to spend an evening down A&E on 22nd October because I found that I was struggling with breathing and I had heart palpitations and was really worried about. My bestie's dad told her to put her smart watch on me to check my heart rate and found that my heart rate was sitting between 115 and 125 which isn't right so rung 111 to talk to someone on there and I waited for a nurse to ring me back who said I should go to A&E as I would need an ECG to check my heart and she thought it sounded like a chest infection but they would be able to deal with me better.
My bestie took me to hospital and had to have my blood pressure checked and noticed that I spiked up to 135 so I got taken round to the bays and was asked to get on the bed and take my top and bra off so I could have an ECG done. Once I had that done the nurse said a dr would be round to see me. I wasn't expecting him to come round so quick. He took my temperature as I felt really hot and was sweating. He then asked if I had been to the toilet, eaten or drank anything that day and I admitted I hadn't as I wasn't hungry nor thirsty and hadn't been to the toilet when I woke up that morning which meant that I was then dehydrated from not eating or drinking properly since I hadn't been feeling well. After he took my temperature he said I needed to have some blood tests to find out whats going on so he came back put a cannula in and took my bloods and within 10 mins of him going off once he had done a nurse came to put some fluids in me and then a lady came to take me down to X-Ray turned out he had booked me in for a chest x-ray and I didn't know.
When I got down to X-Ray he asked me to stand against the machine and within 5 mins it was all done. I have had X-Rays done before. I had one years ago on my nose because I was hit in the nose with a hockey stick! Had others done on my knees as I am knocked kneed (means my ankles don't go together) and I used to have them done on my teeth when I saw an orthodontist as one of my teeth grew along the top of my 2 front teeth so I ended up having it removed.
Got wheeled back round to the bay I was sitting in and waited for my results.
Took about half an hour or more or so I would say and dr came back and said that my blood tests show I am fighting an infection or 2 and my x-rays showed a shadow of some kind on my left lung and said that it looks like the start of a chest infection!
With that he went off got my antibiotics and came back and took the cannula out and said I was able to go home :)
After a weeks worth of antibiotics and having an upset stomach over the last 3-4 days I have finished them and I am starting to feel a lot better. Still bit bunged up in places and coughing every so often but otherwise I am slowly starting to feel a bit more like myself

Fun.. Fun.. Fun...

Today after spending the day in bed being ill.. i went out with my other half and his kids! :)

was kinda nice actually.. but have to admit it bit hard, when they not my own! i felt bit sad today because although its good "practise" they aint mine.. and well watching them all 'playfight' etc. it kinda makes me sad because i feel bit like outcast.. probs silly.. just i wish i had a child who wanna play with me.. one of his kids aint too bad... i was getting hugs from one of them and spent the day playing with her.. and pushing around in pushchair..!
I did get some picture's as did my other half and done some funny videos that was cool.. :)

still.. to end this day i got a phone call from the Hospital telling me that they would like me to go back on the 11th for my last (possible final) blood test... just to make sure that my hormone levels go back to normal and there was no problems with my results which means i dont have to have another Injection for the termination because it has done what it was meant to do.. so thats kinda good i guess.

my.. my.. my..

What A Day... What A Day...

Had my last blood test today (dunno if good thing or bad...?) plus i am still bleeding on and off and light, sort of like 'spotting'
Spent the day with my other half and his son, which was nice.. even if it did hurt at times because it often hurts knowing that i had to loose mine, and i just dont have a connection like he does with his kids and it hurts! :( silly really.. but i just really wish i had my own child that would actually be excited to see me everyday and want to play with me and everything!
i dunno i guess i being silly... but i just in some ways in the 2 weeks i knew i was pregnant i kinda had this whole idea of what a family would be like and finding out it was ectopic just killed something inside! people say i can try again etc. but who is to say that this time the baby will grow in my womb and not in my tubes or ovaries or wherever it was this time around etc.
other than that it was an OK day till some berk starts causing problems with her "thats not what he said" or "he was seeing me at the weekend" etc. etc. etc. i am board of hearing it and board of you knowing that you can control my mind by not even seeing me ...!!
I am now chilling out, has just had spaghetti and meatballs made for me for my late late dinner... whilst watching a film called Stick It, that my other half bought me in BlockBusters! :)

what a nightmare...

i havent been posting for the last week due to not being able to say or know whats going on till i knew for sure...
but on the 9th Feb, i had gone to doctors for a suspected pregnancy, got my results back on the 12th and ended up in A&E lol
When i was informed of the results i burst into tears and was panicking on the phone, she informed me to go to hospital so i did - in an Ambulence.. woopwoop my first time i get to go in one as i wasnt with it, and because i couldnt get to A&E! lol
so i found out that i am pregnant, regardless of the bleeding i was having at the time (stopped the day after thankgod)
so i spent this last week wondering whats going on, and having blood tests checking my hormone levels! lol

still.. i had one today and i find out results Monday afternoon... so fingers crossed its OK and i still get to have a scan on tuesday too.. fingers crossed...