T'was The Night Before Christmas...

I can't believe that it is the 24th December 2014!!

Where has this year gone!?

I have mixed feeling's this year though, I am looking forward to seeing my sister, brother-in-law and nephew for tea and for them to open their pressies and to open ours from them.

But, I do feel sad due to the amount of stories on Facebook with picture's and status' about their children opening letter's from Santa, leaving out milk and cookies or mince pies and also some food for the reindeer it does upset me a little bit because I should be doing all of this myself keeping the magic and the spirit of Christmas alive.. I do make a big thing about Santa when it comes to the little ones and my nephew being one of them as he's learning a little more about it this year which is good :)

Although there are people missing from our life, in our hearts and mind is where they'll stay.

Gotta find my Christmas Spirit in me ready for tomorrow evening when I have tea at my sister's

Wish me luck

Wishing All Of You Out There A Very Merry Christmas And A Happy New Year

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It's Almost Christmas....

I am kinda looking forward to Christmas.... YES I Just said that :/

For the first time in many years, I have hated Christmas, just not been very interested in it and never knew why, I did mentally block a lot of my past out of my mind, so I think it might have been down to loosing my Nan early 1996, growing up and then within the last 5 years, my parent's splitting up!

I think that the magic of Christmas just shriveled up and died in me.. My sister on the other hand, she loves Christmas and everything about it.. She's always been like it, even before she had my nephew..

Only thing I loved about Christmas was Christmas music and movies.

My Favourite Christmas Movie:

Muppet's Christmas Carol

National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation

My Favourite Christmas Song:

Fairytale Of New York

When I was a kid, we would get out all the old Christmas video's we had, the Disney ones and sing a long songs.. And that's all I remember about Christmas when I was a kid.

There are some 'family videos' around where my parents used to record us opening gifts and playing with them but I can look at them now and I wouldn't even remember anything I got :( it is a little sad that I do not remember much, but I blocked out so much and I don't know why.

I am hoping that this year, my attitude towards Christmas will change.. I know that it isn't going to be the same, especially since I know there should be a little one running around and learning about the magic of Christmas, and leaving milk and mince pie for santa and a carrot for the reindeer lol

Hopefully.... One day..... My luck will change!

Films, Films & More Films....

So after my last post i watched, well listened/watched more films on sky, i was watching various of films, one of them being:

A Christmas Wedding..
that was ok.. was about some girl who was travelling back to get married on xmas day encountering problems and helping others before herself on christmas..
enjoyed that one!

27 Dresses..
that was a good one also, i had been wanting to watch for a while, but i managed to catch it on sky not long after " A Christmas Wedding " ..!

 

The House Bunny..
omg i love this film.. is from the makers of Scary Movie if i remember rightly.. but is about a PlayBoy Bunny =) really funny and very cool..

 

 

Ferris Bulliers Day Off..
..nothing beats a nice 1980's film with Matthew Broderick in *drools*.. really good and funny have seen this few times before, but still is good film to watch..

 

 

and to finish up for my blog i started to watch the end (unfortunatly) of Mickey's Once Upon A Christmas on the Disney Chanell.. i love this film, i have it and Mickey's Twice Upon A Christmas on dvd also, but when i tried to watch the other day i couldnt get my dvd to work *sigh*

.. i am now doing the reciepts i have done 2008 - 2009 woop woop..

still got some more 2 do though due to needing to do their small reciepts! :)

Trying To Get Into The Christmas Spirit..... again..

So i have been bored out of my brains, i mean very board, at first i had my brother annoying me for hours on end, till he finally went to Bristol to stay with his girlfriend.. and my sister has been at work.. so it has just been me and my dad - and i cant tell you just how boring it was, hardly anything to do, nothing on tv.. sky is crap, nearly/over 1,000 channells and bugger all on to watch, just crazy! - although i did watch 'Yes Man' with my brother this morning (see other blog).

Eventually my dad did decide to watch a film, and we watched National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation.

 

...such a funny film.. i loved it, even though i had seen it before lol

however, now at this moment i am writing this blog, i am actually sitting in the sofa, watching Love Actually on ITV (i believe)...

 

 

I am also chilling out drinking a glass of baileys and ice..

although i shouldnt really.. as i am on anti depressants, but i just dont know what it is but i just cant stick to them, i just keep giving up! =( i strongly feel nothing is working, nothing settles me, and nothing certainly has made any difference in the last 3 months - even if i do keep giving up and everything... oops!