At the beginning of the month I had wrote a post about coming off my Mirtazapine tablets to try something new called Venlafaxine. Within a few days of taking the new meds I had a couple of side effects which I thought at first was a good thing and then all of a sudden I had lost myself and the side effects had got worse and got to the point where I couldn't look after myself properly.
The side effects I had were
- Sweating
- Dry Mouth
- Feeling Sleepy
- Trouble Sleeping
- Feeling Sick
These side effects were awful. I already have trouble sleeping as I have Insomnia amongst other things but it got to the point where I was falling asleep gone 4 often 5 or 6am in the morning. I was still waking up around 9am or 11am when my alarm goes off but I was constantly tired and it got to the point where I wasn't really eating anything during the day. I didn't see anyone for 2 weeks except for my mum she had popped round to see me and brought me shopping when I needed it. All I asked her to get me was soup and bread and a few goodies like doughnuts and cake and crisps. I don't know what I would've done if my mum hadn't come round to check on me and help me.
With the sweating I found myself spending days without clothes on because it was the only way I felt cooler.
I had my check up on Friday 18th and it was so stressful. I had a bit of a meltdown before I went to the doctors because I had to go by myself, my mum had agreed to meet me in the end so I had to walk to my sisters as that is where she was. I wore my coat because it was raining on and off but found myself really hot even though I just had a tshirt on underneath I thought I'd be fine but I really wasn't. I had waited for almost 25mins for a bus to take us to the doctor and where it was late I was stressing myself and worrying I wouldn't make the doctors on time. So my mum said to ring them and let them know that I am running a little late. Issue was when the bus finally came it was the one that goes the long way around Bersted and whilst I was in the call queue the bus eventually turned up so I let them know I would be running late and explained the buses were late and then the receptionist turned around and said that my Doctor was running a full clinic and if I am more than 5 mins late the doctor will make me as DNA (did not attend) and it would be down to the doctor if she would see me or not. With being stressed and worried about the buses being late I then got more stressed worrying about how long it will take the bus to go to the doctors and then when we got there just before 2:30 which was the time of my appointment my mum and I rushed as fast as my legs would take me to walk down the road. My legs started to feel like jelly as we were just outside the doctors so I checked I could sign myself in on the screen luckily I still could and then sat down and waited to be called in. Luckily I had made it just in time to my appointment.
I told my doctor about everything I have gone through the last 2 weeks with not being able to cope with all the side effects. I told her what I had and how bad it had got for me. I hate to admit it but it got so bad that I no longer did anything I didn't even shower either every day or every other day I didn't really eat anything and even my doctor could see that I wasn't myself as I have seen her 3 or 4 times now so she noticed that I wasn't myself. She told me there and then to stop taking the medication and just take the Quetiapine at night like I normally do. She did mention Promethazine to help with me sleeping and I said I already take those. Bedale had prescribed them to me last year when I had my last appointment there and I had mentioned that I had been taking the Promethazine at the same time as the Quetiapine whilst I was taking the Venlafaxine but it made no difference.
It's crazy how a lower dose of medication counteracted the other medication which is a higher dose.
I am a little disappointed with all of this and unfortunately I cannot get the last 2 weeks back but I am so glad that my family are so understanding with how I have been feeling and haven't pushed me to do something that won't help.
Yesterday which was Monday 21st October I managed to go out. My mum met me after I got out the shower and we were going to go to town but I didn't want to go in the end so I told mum that I only wanted a new saucepan and asked if she would mind if I just went to my sisters first and she was fine with that.
It felt so good to be able to get out I saw my sister and my littlest nephew and waited for my middle nephew to finish school and then my eldest nephew does football after school on a Monday so I waited to see him too. It felt great to see my sister and my gorgeous nephews. I have missed them all so much I felt bad for not being around but I couldn't force myself to do something I could not do.
I also managed to do a little shopping last night too. I got myself BBQ Pulled Pork and Cheesy Mash from Tesco for my dinner last night and grabbed a few other bits I needed like micro meals more soup and got a few cakey bits too. I didn't get no crisps because I had forgotten that I didn't have any left lol but it's fine. But I have enough food to last me a week or so.
As for the doctors I have an appointment in 2-3 weeks time to see how I am getting on with just the Quetiapine and Promethazine. I can go back on the Mirtazapine IF I want too but at the moment my doctor wants to see how I get on without those ones which is fine.
Tuesday, October 22
Wednesday, October 2
It's A Girl...
A couple of months ago I was asked by my friends daughter and her boyfriend IF I could be their baby's Godmother. After a few tears and checking over and over that they definitely wanted me I agreed.
I was so happy and scared, anxious, excited and many many other emotions all at once but I couldn't believe that I finally get to have a Goddaughter. I do currently have 2 Godsons one of which is my nephew but being an Auntie to him was a more important job which it is, but I still count him anyway :)
Over the last couple of months I have been making a few bits for the baby, I made a Dragonfly Blanket, Unicorn Security Blanket and last but not least a Preemie Octopus. At the start of the pregnancy they wasn't sure if she'd be able to carry to full term because of some issues that she has, they had given her certain weeks they needed to get her too and it kept changing as the pregnancy progressed which is good in a way, but it meant having to wait a little longer.. It was very scary last week (23rd September) when I was informed that she had a really bad bleed and I woke to a message letting me know whats happened. She had loads of scans and checks and they sent her from hospital in Chichester to the one in Portsmouth. They kept her in Portsmouth for a few days keeping an eye on her and baby and despite the bleed the baby was still health and happy. At this point I had received videos of hearing her heartbeat and seeing how strong the heartbeat was. One of the videos I was sent my friends daughter was having contractions so I got to see those numbers rise for that which was interesting as I never knew that their machinery was able to tell how strong they are!
They was told at the start of last week that they're going to get baby out on Thursday but instead they sent her back to Chichester and after that sent her home told her to rest for a few days and that they had booked her in for the Monday (30th September) to have her C-Section. She had pre-op next day but I couldn't see her because I had a really bad cold so I was told last week that I needed to get rid of it before I get to meet baby. Which I did in time thankfully..
After baby was cleaned up they decided to give her the Preemie Octopus that I had made for her and she took to it quite quickly and wouldn't let it go hehe I got sent pictures from them showing me her cuddling and holding the octopus and I was then told that the hospital staff loved it and said how well it was made and it may have been mentioned that they could possibly do with some more in the future. So the plan is to make more to donate to the hospital when completed.
Yesterday (1st October 2019) Mummy, Daddy & baby came home and I was so happy to see them both and excited to meet their baby girl. I didn't want to give her up she is very tiny and so beautiful. I am such a lucky girl to have such an amazing 2nd family which is what my friend and her family are to me. And although it still hasn't sunk in that I have a Goddaughter I am bursting at the seams with love for them and their baby
I was so happy and scared, anxious, excited and many many other emotions all at once but I couldn't believe that I finally get to have a Goddaughter. I do currently have 2 Godsons one of which is my nephew but being an Auntie to him was a more important job which it is, but I still count him anyway :)
Over the last couple of months I have been making a few bits for the baby, I made a Dragonfly Blanket, Unicorn Security Blanket and last but not least a Preemie Octopus. At the start of the pregnancy they wasn't sure if she'd be able to carry to full term because of some issues that she has, they had given her certain weeks they needed to get her too and it kept changing as the pregnancy progressed which is good in a way, but it meant having to wait a little longer.. It was very scary last week (23rd September) when I was informed that she had a really bad bleed and I woke to a message letting me know whats happened. She had loads of scans and checks and they sent her from hospital in Chichester to the one in Portsmouth. They kept her in Portsmouth for a few days keeping an eye on her and baby and despite the bleed the baby was still health and happy. At this point I had received videos of hearing her heartbeat and seeing how strong the heartbeat was. One of the videos I was sent my friends daughter was having contractions so I got to see those numbers rise for that which was interesting as I never knew that their machinery was able to tell how strong they are!
They was told at the start of last week that they're going to get baby out on Thursday but instead they sent her back to Chichester and after that sent her home told her to rest for a few days and that they had booked her in for the Monday (30th September) to have her C-Section. She had pre-op next day but I couldn't see her because I had a really bad cold so I was told last week that I needed to get rid of it before I get to meet baby. Which I did in time thankfully..
After baby was cleaned up they decided to give her the Preemie Octopus that I had made for her and she took to it quite quickly and wouldn't let it go hehe I got sent pictures from them showing me her cuddling and holding the octopus and I was then told that the hospital staff loved it and said how well it was made and it may have been mentioned that they could possibly do with some more in the future. So the plan is to make more to donate to the hospital when completed.
Yesterday (1st October 2019) Mummy, Daddy & baby came home and I was so happy to see them both and excited to meet their baby girl. I didn't want to give her up she is very tiny and so beautiful. I am such a lucky girl to have such an amazing 2nd family which is what my friend and her family are to me. And although it still hasn't sunk in that I have a Goddaughter I am bursting at the seams with love for them and their baby
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