Been An Awful Couple Of Weeks...

It's been an awful 3-4 week! I came down with a cold and it's only just gone.. I haven't been that unwell in quite a while and I ended up having to spend an evening down A&E on 22nd October because I found that I was struggling with breathing and I had heart palpitations and was really worried about. My bestie's dad told her to put her smart watch on me to check my heart rate and found that my heart rate was sitting between 115 and 125 which isn't right so rung 111 to talk to someone on there and I waited for a nurse to ring me back who said I should go to A&E as I would need an ECG to check my heart and she thought it sounded like a chest infection but they would be able to deal with me better.
My bestie took me to hospital and had to have my blood pressure checked and noticed that I spiked up to 135 so I got taken round to the bays and was asked to get on the bed and take my top and bra off so I could have an ECG done. Once I had that done the nurse said a dr would be round to see me. I wasn't expecting him to come round so quick. He took my temperature as I felt really hot and was sweating. He then asked if I had been to the toilet, eaten or drank anything that day and I admitted I hadn't as I wasn't hungry nor thirsty and hadn't been to the toilet when I woke up that morning which meant that I was then dehydrated from not eating or drinking properly since I hadn't been feeling well. After he took my temperature he said I needed to have some blood tests to find out whats going on so he came back put a cannula in and took my bloods and within 10 mins of him going off once he had done a nurse came to put some fluids in me and then a lady came to take me down to X-Ray turned out he had booked me in for a chest x-ray and I didn't know.
When I got down to X-Ray he asked me to stand against the machine and within 5 mins it was all done. I have had X-Rays done before. I had one years ago on my nose because I was hit in the nose with a hockey stick! Had others done on my knees as I am knocked kneed (means my ankles don't go together) and I used to have them done on my teeth when I saw an orthodontist as one of my teeth grew along the top of my 2 front teeth so I ended up having it removed.
Got wheeled back round to the bay I was sitting in and waited for my results.
Took about half an hour or more or so I would say and dr came back and said that my blood tests show I am fighting an infection or 2 and my x-rays showed a shadow of some kind on my left lung and said that it looks like the start of a chest infection!
With that he went off got my antibiotics and came back and took the cannula out and said I was able to go home :)
After a weeks worth of antibiotics and having an upset stomach over the last 3-4 days I have finished them and I am starting to feel a lot better. Still bit bunged up in places and coughing every so often but otherwise I am slowly starting to feel a bit more like myself

Why Does This Have To Be Real...?

Today I have been flicking through my hard drive sorting out some videos to put on to my USB stick that goes into my telly and been flicking through all my old pictures that I have taken over the years and put onto my hard drive to make space on my laptop.

I found some old videos that I kept in a separate folder to go through easier and I was nosing to see what I have stored and came across some videos of Jack my eldest nephew at Christmas at our Grandparents house we all got together for a Christmas meal at my grandparents and didn't realise that you could hear my Grandad in the background. There was other voices as well but I just broke down because it's been almost 10 months since my Grandad died and I miss him so much!

To be honest it still hasn't sunk in properly that he is no longer here, I haven't been to his grave since his funeral back in January because I don't want it to be real so I haven't gone :( I want too because then I can speak to him and tell him I'm sorry I haven't been sooner etc.

Never knew I had this and I am so glad that I always take pictures of everything and everyone and videos too! It felt so good to hear his voice but now I miss him even more if that's even possible!?

At least now, when I miss him and want to hear his voice, I can! Will have to share the videos with my family so they too can hear his voice!

I had all this a few years ago when I was given a DVD of my Nan she was interviewed at St Wilfreds Hospice about the roses that was planted in the gardens and it was originally on video but it finally got transferred to DVD and it had been many years since I last heard my nans voice and I remember how upset I was when I heard her voice for the first time...