Monday, October 1

What A Lovely Day

Today I finally got to spend some time with my Godson.. I've not seen him or my friend since the beginning of May 2012..
Cannot get over how big he is, same with the girls.. They've grown up so so much over the last few months, but I need to try and see them so much more because they keep forgetting about me and it kinda sucks!!

Spent the best part of today admiring wedding dresses and talking about the wedding next year, been looking at bridesmaid dresses for me - but its hard when I have a weird body shape :/
Looking forward to trying to find something though lol

Going to have an early night tonight I think though, as last night I stayed up till gone 5am and woke up around 9 to let the cat out to find it was raining.. I love the rain :)
Looking forward to seeing my sister this week now, but not looking forward to going to the doctors lol
But then, who does look forward to seeing a doctor :/

Thursday, September 27

I Love The British Weather..

It just keeps raining..

I love the smell, I love the sounds, I love watching it fall down my window... Ok there isn't really anything I hate about it lol
One thing I do not like, is thunderstorms!! Even though I happily sat outside a friends house in Seaford, East Sussex watching a massive lightning storm out at sea - I am still scared :/
That day is something I will probably never experience again.. And what is worse is that I was unable to record it that day.. My phone was flat and my camera needed batteries :(
Best way to describe it was like a massive firework display.. But of lightning lol
Scary bit was when it looked like a fork of lightning was about to hit a ferry coming out of Newhaven Harbour..

Last night was one of those nights that made me unhappy, because a flash of lightning come and then a rumble of thunder :(

I really need to learn how to photograph the clouds properly with my Kodak Z1015s camera.. Either that or edit these kind of photographs in Paint Shop Pro..
Loves my fluffy clouds I do..

Thursday, September 13

The Most Amazing News.... EVER!!

So, last week (7th September 2012) I got to find out what my sister is having, and I am happy to say that she is having a boy :)
Which kinda means that the Chinese Gender Chart was correct - because all the different charts I played around with ALL said BOY!!!

I am looking forward to 2013 even more :D

Can't believe I am going to have a Nephew! =')

its a boy

Thursday, August 16

I Am Impressed With Myself

So, tonight I have been playing around with Paint Shop Pro X2 after finding a really crappy poorly explained video to make a brush!

So tonight, I had a play around with an image I have of Elvis Presley, and turned him into a brush!
I was so impressed with myself, that I did it again and print screening as I went along and made myself a tutorial - this is something I have never thought of doing before, but thought I would give it a go.
After making my first Brush, Tutorial I then went on to make my first set of Word Art!

I am kinda impressed with myself, especially if it IS basic.. But I am learning more things as I progress!

You can find my Graphics Blog here -


Monday, August 6

Chinese Gender Chart..

I found various of sites offering a Chinese Gender Chart .. So I thought I would try it out with my sisters due date and birthday.. To see what it will come up with..

I did it on about 6 different sites and they all say Boy...

But, these tests are for fun and are around 50% accurate - obviously!!
Found out some history on it too, it was quite interesting to read about it too!

For now, I think we should just leave it and wait till September and hopefully my sister will find out what she is having when she has her 20 week scan!
Exciting stuff!

Gonna see if I can find out some more info with the old wives tales.. Hmm..

Thursday, August 2

Do I Or Don't I ... That Is The Question...

I keep seeing many other graphic designers talk about having blogs, sharing tutorials on their blogs and more..
Keep wondering if it is worth me giving it a go and seeing if I can expand a little more..?
With my graphics, I have been teaching myself and editing myself without help from anyone or tutorials anymore, everything I do I picked up over the last 7 years +

I love graphics, I love designing them too.. But I am not sure if I have got what it takes like the other designers..
But I suppose the one way I will find out is to take the plunge......Right??

Wednesday, August 1

Still Waiting..

HOW long does it take for the hospital to write to you.. Apparently it takes FOREVER - or what it feels like at least lol
Its been almost 4 weeks since I had my treatment and I was told between 3 and 4 weeks

Really worrying about these results more and more as the days pass.. I am hoping they got it all, but I am preparing myself for the worst - which is all I can do??

Hopefully I will hear by the end of this week, if not I am straight on the phone to them Next Monday!!

Keeping my fingers crossed though!

Saturday, July 28

Things That Make You Wonder .... "WHY"

Over the last few days, I have been finding various things out, and I don't like what I see..
I run graphics through a friend page on Facebook, and over the last few months I have come to meet some nice people, some not so nice.
Worst thing is, the not so nice things come from someone whom you classed as a 'friend'
Everyone has their opinions, I am not saying they don't, but surely if you had a problem with someone you would therefore explain it to someone to hope to solve the differences or just brush it off and ignore it because you know full well that saying something would cause drama.. Or so you think!
I've been hurt and distraught over people taking advantage of me, and reporting me for silly little things left right and centre, but never did I expect to see it come from someone whom you class as a friend..
1st problem - made a graphic to print, laminate & post - which I did, but then claimed never got it and then set a month long problem with PayPal.. Got their refund & their graphic *sigh*
2nd problem - made a timeline cover & display picture to help out a 'friend' for free - stole my design stuck them onto t-shirts and sold them *sigh*
3rd problem - a 'friend' criticise my work, wrote how they wanted to hurt me, and blocked me from seeing everything on their page - god knows why :\ and now I think I've fallen out with my friend over it..
This is the 3rd thing to go wrong since doing my graphics, all in the space of months! Something is starting to tell me that maybe I am wasting my time and efforts in doing what I am doing, and I should just give up..
Another part of me is telling myself to not give up and let these people win, because there are people out there whom have come forward and told me how my work has helped them grieve and so much more..
I don't want to let people down, but I don't want people criticising me and being generally rude for no reason at all.. I've never criticised them or their work, and I have been doing what I do for the last 7 years, not to mention the 2 year gap! But I still designed websites for friends..
Really wish I knew what gave people the idea to say things like this, especially to fellow designers and friends!!

I get a lot of my inspiration from other graphics.. I look at them and think
" ohh wow I like that, I wonder if I can do it too "
And so I try, sometimes I fail, sometimes I don't..

Its not my fault a lot of the scrap kits are free to download, some are to purchase.. Not to mention having over 1000 of tubes!
All my work I do in Paintshop Pro X2 and I love it and love using it.. I am always learning new things.

Friday, July 20

People Make Me Laugh..

Talk about pathetic..

WHY do people dictate to others what they can and cant do.. I mean, I know someone who thinks they can dictate to others what they should do, just so that they can get what they want??

" Tell her to go out so I can come round "
" Throw her out so I can come and stay "
" Pack a bag you aren't wanted "
" Why are you there, he doesn't want you "
" Get out of the house or I will sort you out "

There are so many statements that I could list, but cant because there are far too many stupid comments that people have let slip through their mouths.
What do these people think, or expect to gain from this!? Do they REALLY think they can get their own way just because they want what someone else has got, perhaps?

But it does just go to show how two faced some people can be, they will be nice as pie to your face then in a split second could be stabbing you in the back within minutes..
It does just go to show that not many people can be trusted, and people do tend to take advantage of you and your kind nature.

If you are seeing this post and realised that you are the one whom made these statements - think again before trying to stir up trouble.. IDIOT!!

Rant Over!

Thursday, July 19

I Am Going To Be An Aunty..

Today I am HAPPY & PROUD to {FINALLY} announce that my Sister whom is 23 is pregnant with her first baby!!
Today (19th July 2012) she found out she is exactly 12 weeks, baby is perfect and healthy and I get to see pictures when she isn't working.. I am so happy & excited, I get to be an Aunty!!!

My sister is due 27th January 2013 which means that 2013 will start off amazing with my sister having a baby!!

I cannot wait to see the scan's of my Niece/Nephew


Sunday, July 8

What A Week..

I had an hospital appointment on the Tuesday (3rd July) because I had an abnormal smear result come back end of May..
Being in the Gyny block which is now where the Mother & Baby Block is, felt so uncomfortable.. Especially since they've now moved the EPU (Early Pregnancy Unit) which is where I spent a lot of my time when I had my Ectopic.
Seeing all the ladies with beautiful bumps, big and small made me feel empty and sad.. I couldn't help but think:
When is it MY turn..??
I wonder if I looked liked that..??
If Billie was in the right place, would I have a nice bump..??
It kind of bought so many memories of sitting patiently waiting for my scan, and then waiting to see a doctor about the scans, and then seeing all these happy people come out from the scanning room with their images of their babies... It was just very overwhelming.

Even through the Colposcopy I had to check my cervix was heart breaking.. Very scary I had to go in by myself.. Came out of it sore and miserable.. And also came out with an appointment to go back to have a pre-op and to be put under a general anaesthetic because I couldn't have the treatment done that day.
I went away feeling weird, worried and confused.. Had some lunch with my brother but I wasn't in the right frame of mind for anything so I was pretty quiet..

Had a phone call Wednesday to be told that they want me to go in Thursday.. So I agreed.. Without even thinking about it.
I still feel a little guilty as I promised my friend I would babysit my Godson whilst she took her daughter to meet her new class when she goes to school in September.. And I am little upset because I haven't even heard from her.. Nor have I seen her in almost 2 months now.

I had the general anaesthetic anyway, took them about 4-5 hours before I went down, I got there at 7:30am and I went down around 11:30am to 12pm.. It was frustrating waiting.. But I did it..
The only thing that hurt me, was that day one of the Anaesthetic doctors was going through my notes in front of me, and at the back of my notes were these scans from my ectopic.. And my heart broke.. It shocked me a little and I upset my mum because I got upset as I saw my scans! That was a weird feeling, it was that bad that I ended up drifting off into my own little world slightly before coming back to 'reality'.
Not to mention, seeing the images of my Cervix that was taken 2 days before during the Colposcopy..

Before I went down I was in a little state of panic for a little while.. The nurse was really nice and the Aneathetist was HOT!!! I was so embarrassed that I started crying before they put me to sleep.. I remember the feeling of the tears falling down my face, and the gentle sound of the Aneathetist saying to me "Good Night, Sweet Dreamings".
During the procedure, I lost 500ml of blood (some how) and woke up to a 'block' and a catheter shoved inside me.. Which was very worrying.. I remember waking up and saying I need a wee.. And being told to not worry because I had a catheter - CONFUSED!!!
But thinking about it now, I think they did that because they didn't want me to get my 'block' wet, as I think the block they put in place was to help bring my vagina back down to normal size slowly and help ease the pain a little??
But when it came to having that block removed was very worrying.. It felt like something was being sucked out of me =O
I am ok now, it hurts in places and at stages.. But I have pain killers to take when I feel I need them, and I have taken 2 paracetamol today and thats it, considering I didn't take anything yesterday that is..

All thats left for me to do now is to wait and see what my results bring in about 3-4 weeks time.

Saturday, June 30

How Annoying..

I am getting annoyed with people..

Everytime I come back to check my blog as I feel like writing, I have to report various comment's as SPAM because plebs keep leaving silly comments that have nothing to do with my blog itself..

Why do people feel the need to do that.. No one is going to be interested in their crappy site where the people whom go to look to see what they're talking about then get bombarded with pop-up's or maybe even virus'

Monday, June 18

I am a happy little bunny today..

Today, I finally worked out HOW to install Paint Shop Pro on Linux - Ubuntu.
I set up a little blog page about it and how I installed Paint Shop Pro 8 for other people on Linux whom are also struggling with not having the program available on Linux.
The downside is that I have been working in Paintshop Pro X2.. Which means ALL the stuff I have done before will no longer work :(
But at least NOW anything I do in the future can be saved properly on PSP 8.
ALSO, I now have Antenna, a website designing software on my laptop so I can get back into doing that and design a website that I have been working on for a little while..

Its nice to feel a little good about myself, even though I have a lot on my mind at the moment..

Be glad when there is more sun available, as the last few weeks have been awful with winds and rain.. No fun. Plus, the weather has killed some of the seeds that have been sown..
Seems the only thing that's able to grow is Weeds & Potatoes..

Still.. Better than nothing.

Tuesday, June 12

My blog..

I have been on my overview of all my blogs today, and I noticed that one of my blogs, Life After My Ectopic Pregnancy has reached over 10,000 view's in the 2 years I've been running it.
This blog, Miss-Sammii has been running for a little while longer, and I've only just hit the 8,000 mark..

It's pretty strange to me because I don't really share my blogs with anyone or even have links to these blogs anywhere at the moment..
Before, I used to have links to this blog between various social networking sites or even various free sites that I make up on Webs or Weebly..

For me to see this is a pretty strange feeling, I've never experienced anything like this before, normally I feel my websites/blogs etc. go unnoticed and it now seems they really don't.
It would be nicer if I knew how many people came back, but I guess that's something I will have to live with.

I think now that I have seen just how many people look at my various blogs a day I should add more to them and make it more active. So this is now going to be my plan from now on.

The blog I have been talking about is here:

Tuesday, May 22

Feeling Hot.. Hot.. Hot!!

Woah.. What a bloody day!!

I cannot get over how HOT it was out there today, I seriously thought and felt at one point that I was melting! Cannot get over it.. Soo awful
But, one good things came out of it as such, because I attempted to use a lawn mower today  =O
It was a little hard work, and it was awkward to use but I did the best I could.. So I was chuffed because at least I tried =)

Afterwards, I took a few pictures of the flowers/weeds growing in the garden.. We planted some vegetables and stuff in the ground a few weeks ago, but because of the amount of rain we've experienced we think they drowned =(
We lost those, but we do have some potted up and ready to plant, which isn't so bad I guess.. But a lot has been drowned, poor little seedlings..

Watched my other half rotovate the ground a little so he could plant some potatoes in the ground which is fun, I even took pictures of that.. They look well cool the way they look like they've been "frozen in time" hehe
Down side is that he hit a baby slow worm =( I picked it up with a bit of a dead daffodil to investigate, and it's tongue was still coming in and out.. So that was a good sign!
Got it wet to try and bring it out of shock and checked a few hours later, and it was gone.. So glad that it's ok though.. Poor lil thing!
It was diddy..

On another note, there seems to be another seagull in the same spot as there was one 2 years ago, so with a bit of luck in a few months time we may see some baby seagulls again - YAY

Been a lovely day, even though I felt was melting..

Monday 21st May

Yesterday I met my mum in town, so we could do a little shopping for my late birthday present =)

I used some money from my other half to buy myself a nice new dress and a pair of new sunglasses as mine got broken =(
They're well cool, they've got butterflies on =)

I got a new dress, 2 new tops and 2 new pairs of leggings.. ALL in my favorite colour: BLUE!!!

Sooo chuffed with them all, they will all go with each other!

I had a lovely time, the only thing that spoilt it was my trip up the doctors ;)
Because now I am 25 I've had to have my Cervical Screening Test done.. BOOHOO!! It wasn't as bad as I thought especially as I knew what to expect with the speculum as I had one used when I had the ectopic 2 years ago. I didn't know what to expect really from having this done as I've never had it and no one has ever spoke to me about it and no one gave me a proper explination!
If anyone is due to have one, I would advise going.. There is nothing to be afraid of, I know, because I did it.. Didn't think I would, but I did =)

I then went back to a couple of shops and spent a little bit more money, and then we went into the pub in the town called Hatters.. Where we had a drink and a natter, whilst I was coughing to death from my cold, and sneezing and blowing my nose - soo embarrassing!!
But it was nice to see my brother for a little while.. Even though he was supposed to give me something for my birthday.. I now have to wait till next week! Ruined my chances of getting 2 pitchers for £10 in Hatters!
Even so, I had a good evening..

Chilled out with my cat and other half watching a bit of telly.. Watched the last episode of the season for Two and A Half Men.. Had to wipe back a tear, but I am soooo glad they're back in the Autumn (Fall) with their new season.. Season 10 I do believe

*** YAAAY ***

Monday, May 21

Rest In Peace x

Tonight, I've learnt that Robin Gibb from The BeeGee's has passed away, from Liver and Colon Cancer.. I've kind of been following his story on the internet news sites reading about it.

Donna Summer, also passed away just 3 days ago, also from Lung Cancer..

Here are a couple of my favourite BeeGee's songs..:

You Win Again:

Celine Dion Feat. Bee Gees - Immortality

I don't know much Donna Summer music, except for this one:

Hot Stuff

Rest In Peace Robin & Donna

Sunday, May 20

My Mum & Sister Are Fundraising For Cancer Research UK

My mum & sister are doing race for life this year, she did not do it last year.. But did it 2010

I was going to do it too, but I changed my mind because I don't think I'd be able to do it as I have problems with my knees and I find it hard walking sometimes!
May have to do it next year if my mum & sister do it again next year

Sara Osman is fundraising for Cancer Research UK

Good Luck

Changes = Bad

Well, After not being around properly in almost a year, I've noticed there have been a lot of changes and I am not sure I like it..

But I guess I need to get back into blog writing again before I can truly decide if I like it or not.

Strange how everything's changed drastically over a few months!!

Not sure WHY everyone tries to "fix" things when they're not exactly broken :\

Oops.. It's been a while... Again!!

I cannot believe that I haven't written to my blog, again for a while!
Really need to try and keep up to date with this!!

Not a lot has happened thought lately, but I have got back into making graphics, again which is kinda cool..
Also, I've become a GodMother to my best friend's baby boy :)
It's pretty amazing..