Fireflies - Owl City

This is the song that I was listening to a lot when I lost my baby 10 years ago. It came out in 2009 but I was still listening to it for months after. And it was in my playlist when I was busing it too and from the hospital and I haven't really listened to it since.
A few weeks ago I was out with a friend and I was sitting in the car thinking about things and this came on the radio! It was weird because I had this weird feeling and then out of nowhere the songs plays on the radio after all these years..

My Immortal - Evanescence

"I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave

Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light

Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me, me, me"

[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/e/evanescence-lyrics/my-immortal-lyrics.html]






Again, this is another song that means something to me, such a wonderful song and very well expressed, Amy Lee is such a wonderful singer, i dont know what i would do if i had never been entered into the world of 


...EVANESCENCE...


God, I Love This Song...

Seether & Amy Lee - Broken

I love this song, i never really saw myself liking this sort of music, but i ended up enjoying it, but i kinda feel that this song as some meaning to how i feel sometimes,

I am broken...

In more ways than one really, but i cant express myself as to how i think or how i feel as though i am broken, which sucks!
I wish i could, but then how do i know if someone is going to listen, or understand for that matter!!

Still, i love this song, and thought i should share!

Tattoo, Tattoo, Tattoo...?

man oh man

there are so many different tattoos out there i cannot seem to pick one, or something suitable to represent anything..

I want 3 different tattoos

1.

Breast Cancer Ribbon with NAN written on it with her date of birth and death - reminds me of my nan!

2.

A special tattoo for Billie, my named Ectopic.. was thinking:

B with angel wings

Heart with B in the middle

Angel written in chinese symbols

Billie written in chinese symbols (trouble is there are 2 male & female, but i had to pick a unisex name!!)

3.

A cat, to represent my love for my cats i have now, and the ones whom has passed... :)

But, where on earth shall i put them???

The cat i was thinking about going on my inside ankle.. as its only going to be a simple outline..

but its where i am going to put the other two is the problem!

I think i might get one on my shoulder, and other on my wrist, but its going be difficult with my scarring.. oops!

Back to the drawing boards!!! lol

Will post my designs i like so far i think, then maybe if someone reading this wants to help me, they can!

Tattoo, Tattoo, Tattoo...?

So i have been thinking for a while that i want a tattoo, well admittedly i have always liked the idea of having one, so i would like one now!
Except, i want something that is meaningful to me. something that represents something..

So thats where i have got stuck.

I have come to the conclusion i would love to have 3 tattoo's!
(yes three)

The main one i want is for Billie, no matter what people say and think, he/she was still apart of me for 3 months regardless..!

So, for him/her i am thinking of..
- a letter B with angel wings
- a chinese symbol of Angel
- Billie in chinese symbols
- a star with a letter B in the middle

....ok the possibilities are endless, oops! hehe
But still, at least that would be meaningful, to me.

2nd
Is to represent my Nan, whom died of breast cancer in 1996.
So i would love to have a pink ribbon with her name and dates somewhere on my body

3rd
is to represent my love for cats, which would also go towards my 3 i have now, including our beloved Lucky whom died few years back, also Whiskers my nan's cat..

Hmmm....

Well, i have myself plenty of ideas now! so i think i will just print them off, and get out the art book and start drawing and designing myself..

Woop Woop

so exciting, i might actually get my arse in gear this time, i hope!!

teehee