Snow....? In October...?

Yes Its Trueee!!!

Here are some pictures that my friend Jacki from America, whom i talk to on Facebook, since watching the Solar Eclipse, July 2010!!
I was talking to her and many other people on the website chat through Facebook, it was great talking to people over the world,
and from that date, we've been talking ever since on facebook via email mostly - due to the time differences, i believe i am 7 hours in front...
But i do often leave wall comments and stuff during the day, to say hi and stuff!
It really is cool, its like having a Pen Pal - i think? although i have never really had one before, or at least i dont think i did have one..? still.. its pretty neat having someone else to talk to over the " pond " as one might suggest! lol

I think these pictures were taken at her place, and she has informed me via facebook that these pictures were taken about 8am..
Pretty nice pictures i have to say!

I wonder if the UK will get any snow early this year..?
If it keeps getting colder, i wonder if we'll get lucky and get snow at christmas, now that would be great! :)

1st March

what to say about today....?
had a bad nights sleep... and got up early-ish to go to the hospital for my blood test to see if my hormones are decreasing yet, got my second one thursday and then shall decide if i need the second injection....
and spent the day with the other half in Chichester wondering around bit going in and out of shops

even went to see my mummy at work today =) which was fun!

hasnt been all that bad today, even if i did sit in mcdonalds and i felt sad and i still feel it now writing this, but i should realise and know that i did the right thing, but i still feel and wish that my baby was IN my WOMB and nowhere else and i would be happy and able to say YAY I PREGNANT........... but no!! :(
its hard and i keep upsetting myself half the time, but i just wish that i had my own baby my own chance to do something good and be a mom like everyone else i know!

You Don't Know What You Got Till It's Gone....

and i found out the hard way!!

on the 1st feb, i woke (startled) to the sounds of my loverly mother shouting there is no internet or phoneline - had been cut off due to no payments from neither my mom, or dad!
so again we had to suffer the consequences of mum n dads divorce thing.. so from the 1st feb to the 4th we had to deal without the net, it was difficult as all we had was our mobiles for the internet, and it pretty much limits itself with what you can go on, so we stuck with Facebook - which was awful especially when it didnt want to always sign in and allow you to do anything on the site *sigh* i can tell you, i had been tempted various times to throw my phone out the window as it was just so frustrating, mainly because we have everything we require and need and want in front of us and we never second think things.
Makes you realise i few things tooo... such as

• how other people cope without
• how other people live without the things we have and they dont
• what its like to not have the things we have grown up with and made major parts of lives

the difficulty of not having them also gives bit more time for family - but in my case it was mainly just myself and my mom, and she spent most of her time moaning about facebook and i spent it watching dvds and trying to play the WII and PS2 as much as i could - but that still wasnt exactly good enough... but still..

Lets just hope now the internet will stay on with us, and we dont have to worry about it again - as selfish as it sounds!

oops..

well so much for me keeping an online diary of daily events and how i cope with them etc. looks like i given up on this, as well as i did everything and pretty much everyone else!
before xmas, i decided i wasnt going to take my tablets anymore, i was taking sertraline, but i felt nothing was working so i stopped them too - which was probably a stupid idea, but i believe now it has been about a month, 4 weeks i have not been taking them and i still feel pretty low! - perhaps its a sign that i should go back to the doctor! but it is very difficult..
things still not getting better between my dad and my mum.. but i guess that is something they need to sort out themselves - but i just cant help but wonder..
i think most of the reason why i gave up with this 'diary' is because
1 - noone reads it
2 - it is stupid
3 - noone reads it
4 - its boring
5 - pointless!!

..or least thats what i feel, and well maybe some have said! but i guess not everyone wants to know what really goes on in the head of a "mental person" !!! lol

so much for a happy new year....

Snow Snow Snow...

well for the last week or so now, all thats outside the window is snow.. and ice and more snow and ice! lol

I have not been out, and i have not really wanted to, because it is just to darn cold.. and in some ways dangerous.
I have some more pictures of what i have taken in the snow, including my first attempt to build and make a snowmans! - and well it kinda looks really demented - but it didnt really help that i tried to give me snowmans 'breasts' - oops! lol

I have also been suffering for the past few weeks with a cold and a cough, which isnt fun either, because what with feeling the effects of that, and the cold outside, just is not fun!

I seriously cannot wait for it to be alot safer outside and be able to walk without falling over and hurting myself - again! lol

Here are some pictures for the start of 2010 with the snow....

 

 

 

 ok so this is my demented snowman! lol it has little bear ears.. and 'breasts' also! lol

...god knows what i was thinking when i tried to make this!!!!

Well Well Well... Whad'ya Know....

Its Snowing again here in Bognor Regis today... actually in fact it has been snowing since around 8 maybe 9pm last night, on and off!
i only went to check because people were making status's about the snow, thought they were being muppets until i went out and saw it for myself.. although i got called a dumbass because i was told it was in fact raining not long before hand, but hey lol
after a while i went out there in my PJ's to take some more pictures and i fell over in the bloody snow :( really hurt me it did..but i insisted on wanting to go out there again (but i didnt go out) i only wanted to take pictures.. but i did take a couple before i had to come back inside from falling over and getting bit wet etc. lol

Today.. i woke up with it snowing, again looked out the bedroom window and it looks as though the ground is thick with snow - so i am in fact hoping to go out there and make a snow mans today as i didnt get to make one last time *sigh* and also get few more pictures than i did before few weeks ago!

but for now.. lets just hope and pray i dont fall over in the snow and hurt myself ... again!!!!

Welcome 2010..

The first blog of 2010

I celebrated 2010 in with family, it wasnt the party i had expected but i did spend it with:
My Aunt & Uncle, Grandparents, their friend Anne & my Uncles Mum too..
I watched them singing on the karaoke and singing on the PS2 games Singstar. then we sat down and played a couple of rounds of the Buzz Game Sports.. i wasnt very good at it i know nothing about sports lol but i do however know a fair amount of Music, but where the Music Quiz is only 4 players.

I trust and hope that everyone had a brilliant new year and a brilliant fun filled pary night last night to celebrate in 2010.

I have not made no New Years Resolutions, as of yet, but there could be a slight chance i may make some as there are a few things i would like to change i think, and i would also need to sort myself out properly this time as it is a new start and a new year.