My blog..

I have been on my overview of all my blogs today, and I noticed that one of my blogs, Life After My Ectopic Pregnancy has reached over 10,000 view's in the 2 years I've been running it.
This blog, Miss-Sammii has been running for a little while longer, and I've only just hit the 8,000 mark..

It's pretty strange to me because I don't really share my blogs with anyone or even have links to these blogs anywhere at the moment..
Before, I used to have links to this blog between various social networking sites or even various free sites that I make up on Webs or Weebly..

For me to see this is a pretty strange feeling, I've never experienced anything like this before, normally I feel my websites/blogs etc. go unnoticed and it now seems they really don't.
It would be nicer if I knew how many people came back, but I guess that's something I will have to live with.

I think now that I have seen just how many people look at my various blogs a day I should add more to them and make it more active. So this is now going to be my plan from now on.

The blog I have been talking about is here:
http://myectopicpregnancy.blogspot.co.uk

Feeling Hot.. Hot.. Hot!!

Woah.. What a bloody day!!

I cannot get over how HOT it was out there today, I seriously thought and felt at one point that I was melting! Cannot get over it.. Soo awful
But, one good things came out of it as such, because I attempted to use a lawn mower today  =O
It was a little hard work, and it was awkward to use but I did the best I could.. So I was chuffed because at least I tried =)

Afterwards, I took a few pictures of the flowers/weeds growing in the garden.. We planted some vegetables and stuff in the ground a few weeks ago, but because of the amount of rain we've experienced we think they drowned =(
We lost those, but we do have some potted up and ready to plant, which isn't so bad I guess.. But a lot has been drowned, poor little seedlings..

Watched my other half rotovate the ground a little so he could plant some potatoes in the ground which is fun, I even took pictures of that.. They look well cool the way they look like they've been "frozen in time" hehe
Down side is that he hit a baby slow worm =( I picked it up with a bit of a dead daffodil to investigate, and it's tongue was still coming in and out.. So that was a good sign!
Got it wet to try and bring it out of shock and checked a few hours later, and it was gone.. So glad that it's ok though.. Poor lil thing!
It was diddy..

On another note, there seems to be another seagull in the same spot as there was one 2 years ago, so with a bit of luck in a few months time we may see some baby seagulls again - YAY

Been a lovely day, even though I felt was melting..

Monday 21st May

Yesterday I met my mum in town, so we could do a little shopping for my late birthday present =)

I used some money from my other half to buy myself a nice new dress and a pair of new sunglasses as mine got broken =(
They're well cool, they've got butterflies on =)

I got a new dress, 2 new tops and 2 new pairs of leggings.. ALL in my favorite colour: BLUE!!!

Sooo chuffed with them all, they will all go with each other!
woopwoop

I had a lovely time, the only thing that spoilt it was my trip up the doctors ;)
Because now I am 25 I've had to have my Cervical Screening Test done.. BOOHOO!! It wasn't as bad as I thought especially as I knew what to expect with the speculum as I had one used when I had the ectopic 2 years ago. I didn't know what to expect really from having this done as I've never had it and no one has ever spoke to me about it and no one gave me a proper explination!
If anyone is due to have one, I would advise going.. There is nothing to be afraid of, I know, because I did it.. Didn't think I would, but I did =)

I then went back to a couple of shops and spent a little bit more money, and then we went into the pub in the town called Hatters.. Where we had a drink and a natter, whilst I was coughing to death from my cold, and sneezing and blowing my nose - soo embarrassing!!
But it was nice to see my brother for a little while.. Even though he was supposed to give me something for my birthday.. I now have to wait till next week! Ruined my chances of getting 2 pitchers for £10 in Hatters!
Even so, I had a good evening..

Chilled out with my cat and other half watching a bit of telly.. Watched the last episode of the season for Two and A Half Men.. Had to wipe back a tear, but I am soooo glad they're back in the Autumn (Fall) with their new season.. Season 10 I do believe

*** YAAAY ***

Rest In Peace x

Tonight, I've learnt that Robin Gibb from The BeeGee's has passed away, from Liver and Colon Cancer.. I've kind of been following his story on the internet news sites reading about it.

Donna Summer, also passed away just 3 days ago, also from Lung Cancer..

Here are a couple of my favourite BeeGee's songs..:

You Win Again:


Celine Dion Feat. Bee Gees - Immortality


I don't know much Donna Summer music, except for this one:

Hot Stuff



Rest In Peace Robin & Donna
<3

My Mum & Sister Are Fundraising For Cancer Research UK

My mum & sister are doing race for life this year, she did not do it last year.. But did it 2010

I was going to do it too, but I changed my mind because I don't think I'd be able to do it as I have problems with my knees and I find it hard walking sometimes!
May have to do it next year if my mum & sister do it again next year

Sara Osman is fundraising for Cancer Research UK


Good Luck
<3

Changes = Bad

Well, After not being around properly in almost a year, I've noticed there have been a lot of changes and I am not sure I like it..

But I guess I need to get back into blog writing again before I can truly decide if I like it or not.

Strange how everything's changed drastically over a few months!!

Not sure WHY everyone tries to "fix" things when they're not exactly broken :\

Oops.. It's been a while... Again!!

I cannot believe that I haven't written to my blog, again for a while!
Really need to try and keep up to date with this!!

Not a lot has happened thought lately, but I have got back into making graphics, again which is kinda cool..
Also, I've become a GodMother to my best friend's baby boy :)
It's pretty amazing..

Thunderrr

This is a clip i made in the garden when we had a massive thunder storm in June 2011.

I was so scared, i do not know or understand how i managed to go out into the garden to film this, but i did!

Check it out...

Empire Of The Sun - Walking On A Dream

I am currently addicted to this song, I have it playing in my Spotify play list as i type!!

I am going to need to get it and put it on my phone/Ipod!!

Happy 24th Birthday To Meee....

And what a day i had!!!!

My birthday was actually yesterday - friday 13th may, but i was so busy yesterday that i never got to post anything. Plus by the time i got home, i was kinda drunk! hehe
At my mums pub, i drank a whole bottle of some shot stuff called Cola Cubes with coke, with my sister including about 10 shots..!! holy crap..! lol i am writing this with a slight headache but i have in fact just had packet of crisps and took some ibuprofen, just waiting it to start easing off a bit.

I spent the day with mum and my sister.. and then evening at mums pub with my sister and mum and brother :) then my mums partner came along bit later..

I got few cards from friends :) and family, just waiting to hear about seeing my dad...

Got some really nice stuff, including mum paying for me to have my tattoo done!! woop woop

Gonna chill out now for the day as im knackered from the night before, and supposed to be going out tonight too!! gonna be fun fun fun! :)

I have a question...

Am I Mental For Wanting To Vent My Anger And Feelings And Thoughts On To Paper, Well Notebooks???

As you may know, I have Borderline Personality Disorder or at least some kind of Personality Disorder, Depression, Anxiety problems and slight Agoraphobia..

And I myself struggle talking and expressing my feelings "normally" but i feel that me writing helps myself without others knowing exactly what has been written..

I am in a bad place right now, I am going through a masses amount of problems and stress, and i cant cope with everything right now, and i felt at the time it was easier for me to write out on paper exactly how i am feeling.

But now, i am being told im mental and not normal for wanting to keep notebooks of stuff i write, i never re read anything i just write it and close the book and go back and write some more then close it etc. i have never re readen anything i wrote.

Apart from once, when i went through some old notepad files on the pc and i read some poems i had written years ago and it broke my heart, i guess i never really knew or understood exactly how i was feeling myself, and seeing that the feels have hardly changed was just awful.

I should really sort out my problems, but i have no patience for meds to work again, and really considering putting myself into a mental hospital or something just to keep me safe,

But if i did this, who is to say i can take the things that really mean to me like my cat for starters i couldnt leave him he needs me around, and loves my company!

no one texts me much anymore so hardly anyone is going to miss my texts/calls... i just really dont know what else i can do now, and after all the words that have been said, i just dont think its fair..

I was reminded of how this girl, has a life, has her baby etc. etc. etc. it just killed me.

I know it is nothing to do with you whom read this but i needed to get that off my chest! so i am sorry, but i am allowed to have feelings, arent i??

Happy 3rd Birthday

This is my gorgeous cousin.

Today is her 3rd birthday!!

I still believe that she was my 21st birthday present from my cousin! 

=)

Cant believe how time has gone by so quickly, feels like only yesterday i held a tiny Summer in my arms.. whom pucked on my top! lol

I just wonder if my cousin is going to give me some more baby cousins, including a brother or sister for Summer, of course! 

Hee Hee Hee Hee

Still.. I just wanna say

x x x Happy Birthday x x x

My moon pictures

.. Pictures that i started taking to show the phases of the moon ..

8th April:

9th April:

10th April:

11th April:

12th April:

Missed a few days due to cloud

15th April:

16th April:

17th April:

18th April:

My Full Moon

>> Click Here To View My Gallery <<

garden weeds..

Ohh dear..
This was the vegetable patch last year.. filled with:
Spring Onions
Beetroot
Onions
Leeks
Cucumber
..and more (i think)

Now...
Its a massive weed patch.. including some of the veg from above growing into seed..

All thats left to do now, is identify it all.. which i have to say is proving very difficult!!

Theres always something there to remind me...

Today i was how you say reminded of the incident that occured around 5 years ago, when i was staying in seaford, east sussex for just under 5months.

I was sleeping on a friends sofa, due to falling out with my boyfriend, best friend and mum..
Whilst i was staying there i was accused of stealing £50 from my friends aunt & uncle... i was gob smacked to learn this!
I was actually given £50 via bank transfer from my uncle at the time i was staying in seaford due to no money, and he offered it to me as a "belated birthday gift" from missing out on quite a few birthdays!
But, i never withdrew the money from my account, nor did i deposit it.

This now cannot be proved, but even so, i know i never stole from them, never have done and never will, its not me.
But, my mum on the other hand believed me because of the problems i was going through, i had litterally found i was clinicly depressed, and diagnosed that year by a dr in Preston, when i was living there that same year, in April 2006.

So, my mum replaced the money that i was accused of stealing, and few years ago it came around to someone else admitting they stole the money, but i am the one who is still being blamed and kinda punished for something i never even did in the first place.
Which now is putting pressure on me deciding if it is worth continuing a friendship with my friend because of her aunt and other friend not dropping something or apologising for something i never had even done in the first place!

Ohhh what do i do