T'was The Night Before Christmas...

I can't believe that it is the 24th December 2014!!

Where has this year gone!?

I have mixed feeling's this year though, I am looking forward to seeing my sister, brother-in-law and nephew for tea and for them to open their pressies and to open ours from them.

But, I do feel sad due to the amount of stories on Facebook with picture's and status' about their children opening letter's from Santa, leaving out milk and cookies or mince pies and also some food for the reindeer it does upset me a little bit because I should be doing all of this myself keeping the magic and the spirit of Christmas alive.. I do make a big thing about Santa when it comes to the little ones and my nephew being one of them as he's learning a little more about it this year which is good :)

Although there are people missing from our life, in our hearts and mind is where they'll stay.

Gotta find my Christmas Spirit in me ready for tomorrow evening when I have tea at my sister's

Wish me luck

Wishing All Of You Out There A Very Merry Christmas And A Happy New Year

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It's Almost Christmas....

I am kinda looking forward to Christmas.... YES I Just said that :/

For the first time in many years, I have hated Christmas, just not been very interested in it and never knew why, I did mentally block a lot of my past out of my mind, so I think it might have been down to loosing my Nan early 1996, growing up and then within the last 5 years, my parent's splitting up!

I think that the magic of Christmas just shriveled up and died in me.. My sister on the other hand, she loves Christmas and everything about it.. She's always been like it, even before she had my nephew..

Only thing I loved about Christmas was Christmas music and movies.

My Favourite Christmas Movie:

Muppet's Christmas Carol

National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation

My Favourite Christmas Song:

Fairytale Of New York

When I was a kid, we would get out all the old Christmas video's we had, the Disney ones and sing a long songs.. And that's all I remember about Christmas when I was a kid.

There are some 'family videos' around where my parents used to record us opening gifts and playing with them but I can look at them now and I wouldn't even remember anything I got :( it is a little sad that I do not remember much, but I blocked out so much and I don't know why.

I am hoping that this year, my attitude towards Christmas will change.. I know that it isn't going to be the same, especially since I know there should be a little one running around and learning about the magic of Christmas, and leaving milk and mince pie for santa and a carrot for the reindeer lol

Hopefully.... One day..... My luck will change!

Meghan Trainor - All About That Bass

I think it might be safe to say that I have found a new song that I am addicted to this year! Don't know what it is about this year, but there are actually a few good songs in the chart which is a surprise Personally, I have found that some of the songs in the chart are crap or are just noise, and me being me prefers to listen to songs that were bought out in the 70s or 80's etc.
But this one is brilliant, it is nice that she's sung a song to help make us 'bigger girls' feel a little more better about ourselves! I know it does me :)

Rest In Peace Robin Williams 1951-2014

R.I.P Robin Williams

21st July 1951 to 11th August 2014

Now, this is something that I have found to be very distressing, something that I know I can relate to in some small way. He may well have been famous, we obviously didn't meet, but depression is something that I know a lot about what with suffering with it for most of my life.

I have to say, that it goes to show that no matter how famous, talented rich etc. people always fight battles that we don't even know about. I believe that no one knew that Robin was suffering with depression, and fought his demons daily, especially with him being a comedian and an actor. He really is a brave brave man for continuing living his life regardless of how he felt on a daily basis. But, it is a shame that it took his own life. I really hope that he is now at peace and is free from his demons.

With all of this in mind, I hope that people will remember him for the comedian and actor he was, funny and all the brilliant films he has starred in for example:

The Voice Of Batty In Fern Gully

The Genie In Aladdin

Mrs Doubtfire

Good Will Hunting

Hook

And many more to mention.

I've picked up these images off facebook to share with you all.

I was browsing Google for some more quotes of his to add to this post, but I found something extraordinary.. I had no idea that Robin Williams & Christopher Reeve was friends. I remember learning of his riding accident which left him Paralyzed, but I had no idea of what involvement Robin had with the charity.

"But in the wake of Reeve's crippling 1995 riding accident, Williams vowed to pick up whatever hospital costs Reeve's insurance didn't cover."

Click here for more information that was left about their friendship!

Balloons Are Funny...

I love this picture so much, it makes you think how weird things are!!

I never thought of it like this till I saw this image haha

Me And My Broken Heart...

Rixton - Me And My Broken Heart

This is a current song that is in the chart that I am addicted too!!

Magic - Rude

Magic - Rude.

This song is currently stuck in my head and it is driving me mad!!

Such an awesome song, I could listen to this all day every day.. It is quite strange for me to like something in our current Top 40 UK!

I am a massive 80's music fan, and most of the stuff that is currently being released is crap compared to what music was like back then - and I am only 27!!!

Have to admit, that most of the 80's songs that were written didn't contain any swear words, or wasn't about Sex, Drugs etc. 

Rest In Peace Rik Mayall 1958 to 2014

R.I.P Rik Mayall 7 March 1958 – 9 June 2014

Now this, this is something that I still cannot get my head around...

How can this amazing funny man be ..... dead??

I loved the Young Ones, Bottom, Guest House Paradiso and not forgetting Drop Dead Fred!

I got chocked up when I read Ade Edmondson's tribute about Rik,

"There were times when Rik and I were writing together when we almost died laughing. They were some of the most carefree stupid days I ever had, and I feel privileged to have shared them with him. And now he's died for real. Without me. Selfish b------."

Or the picture that has been circulating facebook:

I think it might be safe to say, that this is something that will not sink in, not now, not ever!!!

Rest In Peace Harold Ramis 1944 to 2014

R.I.P Harold Ramis November 21st 1944 to February 24th 2014

I loved Harold, and it is such a big shame that he is now gone, especially within the last couple of years it was a possibility of having a Ghostbusters 3 which I would now assume is no longer a possibility.

If they did decide to do it without Egon, then they want a smack in the face, just saying.

It's quite strange, because at the moment I am watching films, and I am seeing him in things that I love and watch constantly, so he in all fairness hasn't left, which is good...

Incase you was wondering, I believe the last thing he appeared in was Knocked Up with Katherine Heigl and Seth Rogen in 2007

Rest In Peace Bob Hoskins 1942-2014

R.I.P Bob Hoskins 26th October 1942 to 29th April 2014

I have been a little slow when it comes to writing out my blogs, so thought I would take the time to catch up a little bit now.

Still cannot believe that Bob Hoskins had to leave us this year, all the good one's seem to be going at the moment it is very strange and feels a little odd..

I will always remember him as Smee in Hook, not to mention Who Framed Roger Rabbit.

You Learn Something New Every Day..

I was sitting here thinking to myself about the best/quickest possible way of accessing some squared paper, on a Sunday afternoon, and have no way of getting to town to obtain it.

So, I thought I would see if there was a way to print squared paper out.. I didn't know if this was possible, so I googled it, only to find that the image search was NOT helpful at all, although it did offer some kinds of squared paper to print, but wasn't really what I was looking for.

But, I found a website that enables you to print out squared paper, in a range of sizes..

2x2 or 3x3 or 4x4 etc.

How cool is that!?
Sorry, but I just had to share, I am a little whacky and strange like that!!

But at least now, I can design my own cross stitch layouts for me to make! Now that's a plus

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Its About Bloody Time....

Welll.... I wrote to my blog in August 2012 about having treatment done for my first abnormal smear that I had done in May 2012.. I hadn't said anything about it since, but I had been bleeding pretty much since I had the Colposcopy done in July 2012.. (I had my period in June)
Left it for a while thinking it was "normal" and went back to the doctor end of August beginning of September, was treated for an infection (precautionary) and was given some meds called Tranexamic Acid for "heavy bleeding" well, that didn't work, so another month later, I went back and said I am still bleeding, something isn't right, so they gave me some blood tests!!
Bloods came back "normal" except my hormone levels were slightly high - nothing was done about it, but said it cant be normal, I am STILL bleeding, to which they decided to send me off for some scans, had the appointment in November, asked if there was anything the lady who did the scan could tell me to put my mind at ease, and all she said was "the lining is a little thick" which was odd, especially since I had been bleeding 3-4 days prior... But I got the results back and again everything was normal.. But again, I said how is it normal when I am still bleeding, at this point I asked if it was possible I could have Endometriosis, but she said she wasn't sure, but is going to send me to the hospital for further checks before ruling anything else out.. Just after Christmas I got a letter stating that I needed to ring the hospital to make an appointment, which I did, but the earliest they could get me in was February 2013!! So I took it.
At my appointment, I told the Gynecologist everything she needed to know, including having the Ectopic Pregnancy in March 2010, the amount of bleeding I had etc.
She decided that she wanted to give me a Hysteroscopy there and then. But first she needed to take some swabs, but she said as soon as she touched me I started again, and decided that doing the smear and swabs wouldn't be a good idea.. And seeing as how I was so uncomfortable with the spectulam in she decided it would be a better idea to get me to sleep to do it!! She decided that she would get the Hysteroscopy, my follow up Colposcopy  a Smear including the Endometrial Biopsy all at the same time. And offered to fit the coil, but I said I would think about it before saying yes.. Talked to a couple of people about it and decided that it would be the best thing to do, because it may work quicker than any medications and hormone tablets etc. So I agreed on the day that she could fit it. They also done a D&C whilst I was under, but am confused because IF I had one, why did I bleed after the procedure and for the few days afterwards - confusing..
But, today, just over 5 weeks later, I have got the results of my Smear - which is ALL CLEAR NO MORE ABNORMAL CELLS.. I don't need to go back now for another 3 years *yay* and my Endometrial Biopsy came back as Simple Glandular Hyperplasia which is Benign! From what I read, I can gather it is an over growth of the cells in the womb lining.. And the hospital have advised that they thing the coil will help treat this, and then it suddenly dawned me, course it would help lol the coil slowly releases hormones!!!!!

Shame its taken almost 6 months to find out whats wrong, but I guess, I know now and hopefully, the coil will do its job and WORK

Hole In My Shoe

Ha Ha Ha .. LOVE this song right now!!

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Handmade Keepsakes & Treasures

I wanted to let you all know about a new page that I have helped set up and made things for.

Its called Keepsakes & Treasures.

Basically, this page is for handmade keepsakes and treasures, they are made for everyone

(Babies, Children, Adults)

Also includes memorial items for memory boxes in memory of Angels & more!

I bought some clay and moulds and cutters etc. to use to make things out of to make for people who are grieving, and to help bring some people some peace.

Also, I hoped that I could make things that mean more than some silly graphics that I spend hours at a time usually making and never get nothing in return - not that I ask for anything, but something more than:

"Thank You, Saved" or "Thanks" or "Saved"

Just makes me feel sad, because I feel that what I have made isn't good enough, and no one seems to show any appreciation anymore :(

Hopefully, this will bring people happiness and appreciate these a little more.

Especially since I have found that there aren't many sites that make and personalize items like this for you in the UK, I have found that many of them, especially on facebook are in the United States!
Which means you're paying a little more for the item including a lot more on postage!

With a bit of luck, I can help change that!!

If you are reading this, and are interested please come and find them here:

Keepsakes & Treasures

One Proud Sister Right About Now...

On the 2nd February 2013, at 13:23 my sister, Becci gave birth to her gorgeous baby boy, Jack. He weighed 7lb 15oz!
He was due on the 27th January, but didn't really want to come out - don't blame him in all honesty the weather here has been pants, what with the rain and the snow and just generally being cold.. I would've avoided it too!!

I am soo happy right about now, and so proud of my sister for being brave and bringing my gorgeous nephew into the world